Goodbye...or just a break???

Well...I am married! :)

To comemorate this turning point I decided to create a new blog using a different host. It allows me to have several blogs and keep up with them in one place...and have photo albums...

Does this mean the end of Mundane News???

I don't know. Only time will tell...

Until then visit me here....

http://www.thesmallmoments.typepad.com/

Checking of my list...

Dress...check

Shoes...check

Petticoat...check

Veil....check

Earrings...check

Necklace...check

It is 10:30am...the limo is supposed to arrive at 11:00am...it is almost time to go. We will pick up my cousins and go to PF Changs for our bridesmaid luncheon. Then at 2:30 we arrive at the salon for hair and makeup. Then at 5:30 we head to the chapel! :) Today is going to go fast!

The next time I blog I will be married!!!!

Today is my wedding day!

:)

Sweet Dreams

Well...the rehearsal and rehearsal dinner went perfectly. I couldn't have asked for better.

Now it is time for me to go to sleep. I am so tired.

This is my last full day as a Dean....tomorrow I will become a Swanner.... :)

Goodnight world...tomorrow is my wedding day!

One day to go!

It is the day before my wedding...it is 7:43 am...and I feel like shit...not just crap...but shit.

It all starts with the fact that I went to bed WAY too late last night. I was up late doing stuff because I haven't finished everything that I need to do...and I let us stay WAY too late at the mall last night. Oh well...can't fix any of that now.

But even before yesterday things have been stressful. Tuesday we got my ring...it didn't fit and it was wrong. It looked horrible to me...they put it together wrong and both Nathan and I were very unhappy. The necklace we bought for the wedding day ....the one they swore the could make white gold...they couldn't and I was extremely disappointed....the pearl and saphire ring we bought to match my pearl earings and the now un-fixable pearl necklace wasn't sized...seems as though they took it upon themselves to decide I wouldn't want it and so they did't bother to size it. I think that pissed me off the most.

Then on Wednesday night the recpeption people emailed me...which the whole thing has become quite a fiasco and I will be writing a letter of complaint...but anyway...they emailed me an email I was not supposed to see about a surprise Nathan was doing for me...so now I know there is a surprise...but fortuneately my fast reading brain shut of and closed my eyes before I read what it was...so all is not completely spoiled...but then again it is.

So...my days and nights have not been enjoyable and stress-free. Oh well...I guess every bride has her problems!

The rehearsal is in 9 short hours...and I have tons to do...so off I go!

4 days

I am reminded of a passage from Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire...it says something about how time seems to pass strangely when you are waiting for something big...that it seems to pass excruitatingly slow and then suddenly you look up and the day is gone.

That is how I feel.

During my day I feel like time is crawling...but then I get in bed and wonder where the day went.

Almost all the little details are taken care of...so now I have lots of free time to just sit and wait...time goes slow...

Naked

I feel naked...and it is a horrible feeling.

I took off my engagment ring today and handed over to the nice lady at Zales. We are having the bands soldered together before the wedding so Nathan only has to put one ring on my finger instead of several.

Now I feel like I am walking around naked. I am constantly feeling my finger and have a short moment of panic when I don't feel my ring...and then I remember...oh yeah...I don't have it right now.

I am glad I get it back in 5 days...well acutally 6...but today is almost over so I will count it as 5

From one end of the Metroplex to the other...

Today was our big shopping day. A week from right now I will be entering the chapel to get dressed. It is 6:02 currently.

Anyway...back to what I was saying...today was our big shopping day. I wish Nathan would write a post because I am sure it would be funny. When we finally stopped for lunch at 2:30 Nathan said, "This is the first time in my life that I have ever been to 3 malls in one day...and we will probably make 4 by day's end."

We had gifts to buy for all of our attendants and cards for them and our families...toys to buy for Ava and Luke...and lots of driving in between. We started out in town and finally found a hallmark that carried speciality cards for groomsmen and bridesmaids....saved the day there. We spend $40 at the Hallmark just on cards...a first for even me. Then we headed to Mesquite because the guy at the Eye Masters we visited last night assured us they had a sonic cleaning maching at the Town East store. The lady at the Town East store was SUPER RUDE, finally scarcatically adding their machine broke two years ago. Whatever...

So on to the first Toys-R-Us for the day. Then to various resturants for gift cards. Then another Toys-R-Us. Then to Plano and our 3rd mall of the day for lunch and another Hallmark store. Then up to Frisco to hit Sam Moon. Then back to Plano for another few gift cards. Then to the Garland mall to check in with Al's Formal. Then to Wylie for our last gift card and finally home. What a day.

We did more shopping today than we have done since we got together. :)

But my to-do-list is vastly shorter which feels good.

Tonight's goal...start getting things ready for next weekend. You may think I am starting early...but I don't want to be rushed and forget things!

One week to go...

Today I picked up my dress, we got our marriage license, and bought our toasting flutes. A week from tonight we will be wrapping up dinner at Blue Mesa and getting ready to head home. Tomorrow will be one week from my wedding.

One week....

So many last minute details...so many emotions...and I can't say I am overly patient right now either. :) Hopefully my family and friends will understand. And if they don't...well...I will apologize after the wedding! :)

Tomorrow we have gifts and cards to buy. Nathan needs a hair cut. I have appointments to make and bags to begin packing so I have a week to realize I forgot an important object. I have a two page to-do-list that needs to be whittled down.

But it is fun....kinda....when things are moving smoothly...

Nathan and I seem alot closer because of all of this. We don't really turn to others for comfort and reassurance right now. If something is wrong I want to tell Nathan...I want him to know first...I cry to him. And his side of it...he has been so good lately. Pretending not to notice when I snap at him...letting me cry when I get worried we will forget something...he holds my hand alot right now and gives me tons of extra kisses and hugs.

He is my match...and soon we will seal the deal...and everthing will be as it should be.

10 Days

10 days until the wedding...wow...tomorrow I will be down to single digits...it is so hard to believe.

Some moments it feels so surreal...like a dream.

We got our engagement pictures and my bridal shots last night. The are perfect. When I look at my bridal portraits I feel so beautiful...I have never had such perfect pictures. I love my photographers!

10 days....10 days...10 days!!!!

Excitement and Meltdown

Actually my meltdown happened last night....and so I should probably write about it first...but it isn't as exciting or as happy as my excitement...so I will write about my excitement first.

I cannot fully describe how excited I am right now. We are making all of our final decisions and adding the finishing touches to the wedding. It is only a week and a half away...10 days tomorrow. Do you remember when you were a kid waiting for your birthday or for Christmas? Your excitement would build...you would feel giddy...maybe even have that little butterfly feeling as you climbed in bed on Christmas Eve. That is how I feel right now. The build-up is just alot bigger and I feel 100 times more excited than I ever did for a birthday or for Christmas. I cannot believe that we are so close...sometimes I feel like I am walking in a daze of last minute activities and things I want to fit in before June 17th.

Of course...with all this excitement does come the moments of stress. Most are short lived and don't really amount to anything...but last night was not one of those times. Last night I had a meltdown. I fully expected I would at some point...I hoped that I wouldn't....but I expected that I would. As I sat crying in the Taco Delight with people staring as I cried about the wedding and all my little stresses Nathan did his best to calm me down. It really is good that he is so calm when I have my high-strung moments. He finally said..."Do you remember what Jack said about the 2 weeks before the wedding?" (Jack is our pastor.) Amidst tears I cried, "Yes...he said it would suck...and that isn't fair!" (Of course our pastor didn't use the word "suck"...but at the moment that was how I could sum it up.) Nathan just laughed and said..."yep...and it will all be okay." I was able to calm down and then we went to mom's and pop's and I vented and talked and felt much better once we got home.

I did have a moment of revelation however. As we were leaving Taco Delight (a fast food mexican place that we LOVE...even better than Taco Bell in my opinion!) I commented to Nathan that I finally understood how brides sometimes get mislabled as "Bridezillas". At the end of it all when there are so many last minute details to figure out...schedules and pictures and timelines and final counts....it is easy to get stressed and snap at people. And usually you snap at stupid little things that don't matter at all and then people label the bride as overally picky and "bridezilla-ish". I don't think it is that way for most people. I am sure that there are truely bitchy brides out there that ask for unreasonable things...but I think most brides are mislabeled...they are just tired of suggestions and making decisions and just ready for their day to arrive!

The LONG awaited arrival of June

I really wasn't sure if June 2006 would ever arrive. It seemed so distant. But now it is finally here. We celebrate several things in June. June 1st was my grandfather--Ace's--birthday. Next we celebrate Nathan's birthday and our engagement on June 3rd. Then we have mom and pop's anniversary on June 12th. The are celebrating 30 years this year. Last and most importantly is our wedding day on June 17th.

I am glad June is finally here. I have been waiting my whole life for this moment...and had almost given up on it entirely. But then...just like the George Strait song "Clear Blue Sky"...Nathan came into my life. :) Now there are only 16 days to go until we are married!!!