Do you ever feel....

Do you ever feel the world is just too much?

I see a friend struggle with the passing of her nephew of 2 years...while at the same time she is DAYS away from having her own beautiful boy.

I see young children entering my class as New Orelean's refugees. They have nothing. And yet they are making friends and smiling through their pain. I see normally judgemental kids opening their hearts and befriending these kids.

I listen as my best friend struggles to find a "right" time to get pregnant again. And as she reads me pages from a book about women's health and how we need to go with our emotions and cleanse ourselves...but when? She has a baby to take raise and I have kids to teach so when do we cleanse?

I watch my fiance struggle with his new job that I urged him to take. And now he is thinking of giving up his career all together...

And then there is other stuff...stuff I won't write on here because of people who might read it.

But it all swirls around...round and round and round....the lines get blurred...where do you start and how do you cleanse and what do you think....

And yet I have come so far...no more medicine to keep me balanced...I let it go...or try to let it go anyway. I am proud that I don't get depressed even though things seem so crazy all around me. I pray daily...for me...for nathan...for my family...for all the random people and badness that swirls around me...

Do you ever feel that maybe there is much more goodness in the world...like babies being born and dreamed of...of women in love picking out dresses and planning a future...of kids opening their hearts...things we never hear on the news...things that make the world good.