10 year High School Reunion

Well....here I am...10 years after graduating high school. Our class reunion is coming up this summer. This brings all kinds of thoughts to mind...

10 years is a long time....we were 18 when we graduated. We thought we were all grown up...but looking back I realize now just how much of a kid I still was. Which makes me think about my classmates....How have they changed? I know I am nothing like I was when I was 18. So much "LIFE" has happened in the last 10 years.

I have to say that I am a better person now. I think most of that has to do with the simple act of growing up. I am much more patient and tolerant now than I was. I think about how mean we could be in high school...and I wonder...will seeing old friends open old wounds? Or do we leave all that in the past...do we all realize that we were stupid kids in high school and that we are different now...we are adults. The things that used to matter...who was friends with whom...who belonged to which group....who was dating...who was talking bad about whom....do we leave all that in the past? Or for one weekend do we travel back in time and become our high school selves again? Rejoining old groups...hating those we hated in high school?

All of this makes me wonder who harbors bad feelings about me. I am sure that I owe many people apologies for this or that. Does time heal those wounds? Does the simple fact that we aren't who we were act as an apology that we just all just silently agree upon?

And then there are the old close friends...all of us thinking on graduation day 10 years ago that we would all remain close friends and keep in touch. And yet....for some reason we didn't. We moved to different cities or states for college and met new best friends and started new lives. We grew up and left those high school friends behind...those we swore we would always remain friends with. Will we even have anything in common now? What will we talk about? I suppose we will chat about where we have been and what we have been doing for the last 10 years.

And so...do I go or not? I am torn...torn between memories of old and fears that maybe I owe too many apologies for my silly 18-year-old self.

I wonder if everyone has these thoughts before the class reunion....